Think about all that you have left behind
Bring to the surface what is forced to the back of your mind
And bring forth that strength, the only kind...
That can push you forward and help you find
Seeing life worth working to fulfill, you'll no longer be blind.
It took me awhile to understand a life without you
I guess a part of me still doesn't believe it can be true
So I work on myself and to earn what is due
Because for now that is all that I can do
And I finally understand that focusing on me doesn't mean I cant love you
So I work hard not see your face everywhere I go
Because your face is so beautiful, I pause and then go slow
And in slowing down to appreciate the thoughts of you, I know
That I forgot about where I was going to begin with, which I have to stop doing if I want to grow...
There is a need of discipline when it comes to you, because I'm weak against you.... like the slaves to their Pharaoh.
I wake up in the morning thinking of you and craving you on me
Like how I need my huevo and cheese on salami
But now I know I cannot let those thoughts consume me entirely
For I must keep a clear head in order to act freely
Even though to force myself not to be about you is heresy
Everyday I get stronger and bolder
No longer feel like my shoulders carry this boulder
Made of the pain that was created from crushing my heart with a bulldozer
My penance has been paid and yet the struggle to stand up is not over
However everyday I'm greeted by the light of the realization that I hold my life's controller
