Resilience

I wish you would come back to hold me in your arms as we look each other in the eyes and to look at me so intently as if the world would stop if you looked away.

I wish you would come back so that together we could try and be the better versions of ourselves with the help of each other.

I wish you would come back so that my faith in this love so real could be restored again.

I wish you would come back so I can really believe you loved me at some point.

Restore my faith in love
Restore my faith in the power above
Rescue my heart from failing
Rescue my heart from sinking
into such dark depths I know I continue to spiral into.
Free my soul from the agony that is losing you
Free me of this toll that is to only remember you
Confirm my beliefs of an epic romance
Confirm my desire for that loving glance
Praise these lips that long to kiss you
Praise this body that craves to show you how much I love you...

Sueños Repetidos

Anoche soñé contigo.

Por la mil noche desde que te fuiste

y me dejaste

en el viento como un globo perdido

como un susurro de amor no escuchado

Nunca en mi vida he tanto apreciado

la capacidad del poder olvidar.

Para mí, eso nunca será una opción.

Deseo tanto el poder de volverte a enamorar

Porque este corazón tan triste no tiene otra opción

Don't criminalize the romanticized and internalized love

I've come to realize and later internalize the reality of my own situation.
I empathize and sympathize  with every aspect of your being.
But when will I realize with these eyes that I am the one in need of feeling like a prize.
Instead I built this guise full of lies that''s got me moving clockwise.
This love for you will be my demise.
This love for you will only make me continue to agonize, until I receive it back.
I know it unwise to continue with this hope that defies everything I have ever believed.
But these butterflies, along with the rest of the zoo animals in my stomach...undies.
You mesmerize and immobilize every atom in me.
And even with all this pain and continued agony, this is a love I could never apologize for.
I love you.