I will share with you all a moment where I realized the negative power of pornography.
Someone I was with got so fucked up he would not stop watching porn. I am not even kidding when I say this person watched porn in my room next to me for about 12-14 hours while I was there.
But was I really there? I was not. They wanted to do to me what they saw on the screen.
They didn't care that I said I did not feel well, they did not care that my cramps were stabbing me in the ovaries, they did not care that I was unhappy, and they certainly did not care for me.
I kept asking for them to do it somewhere else but "that did not feel right"
So there I continued being degraded and ignored in my own space.
This was not the first time, and whenever they apologized they wanted me to forgive them immediately and not "hold it over their head".
It isn't that I even have a problem with a partner watching porn, just not use it as a way to ignore and disrespect me.
I have no problems with porn except when someone is trying to force me to watch these images with them.
I have no problem with porn when its used in a somewhat healthy expression that does not compromise someones soul.
My soul feels compromised, it feels violated, it feels as though it's value was diminished.
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